Connor & Curran

Our story begins in June 2014. I was 32 weeks pregnant with twin boys when I went in for my weekly non-stress test. They had been watching Baby A for several weeks as his growth percentage was hovering around the 10th percentile. They noticed the cord was not showing optimal flow so thy admitted me for observation. 72 hours later, 2 rounds of steroids and a huge deceleration of baby A's heartbeat and we were heading into delivery. To say I was scared and nervous was a complete understatement. I have 2 children already and the thought of having my boys 2 months early was ever extremely scary.

Connor Joseph and Curran James came into this world screaming and pink weighing in at 2 lbs 11oz and 5 lbs 1 oz respectively. I had a quick peek and then they were whisked off to the NICU. I immediately felt an overwhelming feeling of relief because they were here but sadness as well because they were taken from me so quickly. The next few days were a blur as I learned to navigate the ropes of the NICU. Deciphering which beeps on the machines were significant, understanding the importance of weight gain and breastmilk as well as inconsistent sugar levels became my life. I left my heart in that NICU when I was discharged and both boys stayed behind. I still had a 6 and 4 year old at home to take care of.

Back as forth for 3 weeks became my rite of passage. I vividly remember arriving at the hospital and not even remembering my drive there. I knew we needed to be strong for the boys but I couldn't help but feel like this wasn't how I pictured my journey.
Curran was discharged at an amazing 35 weeks and Connor followed at 36 weeks. Both boys are currently thriving and meeting developmental milestones for their adjusted age.

I believe the amazing NICU and the support of my family and friends got us through the hardest time in our lives. It is that support and pay it forward attitude that has pushed me to give back to the unit that has done so much for my family.

We are in the process of developing a project that supports moms and babies at the Holy Redeemer NICU by delivering items and gift cards to moms while they are there. This project is a way I have learned to channel my pain and give it a purpose. It is my hope that all moms know that every birth is a special gift. We are just the lucky ones that get to open our presents early.

Family, friends, nurses, and doctors reminded us to take the NICU journey "one day at a time". We rejoiced in the "good" days.

Martha & Paul / Wyndmoor, PA

Martha & Paul